Adventures

For a hundred times I have thought of this question in my brain and most of the times the answer is being a villain. Why? Because this unfair, ruthless, pointless world deserves to be treated the same way it treats the wishful optimistic youngsters. It never deserves good.

I have realized that all the things I wish that could happen in my life are just.... fantasies! Yeah, only childlike thoughts which will never make me enjoy the living. Today I observed the sky in a way I never did before. I saw the yellowish, orange and pink could fading and giving their place to the dark and gray clouds. I saw the breeze of the wind shaking the tree top leaves. While I was observing the sky I wish I could go into it, like drowning in the depths of the clouds and see what is hidden beyond. I want more than this more than being surrounded by walls and thoughts. I long for freedom and peace.

Maybe I have made a mistake

By rejecting him I lost the different life. I don't know whether or not it is going to be better but I know it would be at least different. Maybe I could have a better summertime, like hanging out and going out. Yes that's all I want as simple as that. A normal teenage life like everyone else and now I have to keep on living like a 14-year-old weak girl, so controlled, limited and surrounded by walls and thoughts.